Tuesday, 16 November 2010 
Suddenly, I feel my life very fatigue and bored. Those the people who can live their life and make their life very 'colourful' I envy to them. I wonder how they do it .Maybe they live their life with their own way because every one have their own way to make and live their becomes more interesting and colourful. How to change my life and let it more interesting wont too fatigue and bored ?! I keep asking myself and think and think it again and again but in the end I still cant find the answer. Haizz maybe life is like that.
最近 especially today, I felt that I the truly lonely person.Every one have their own best friends, friends ,group , topics and etc. And only I don't have it. I have a strong feeling that I'm outsider. No where can accommodate me, it's feel very bad and sad and I have no idea to it! Every time I look and hear somebody is inviting someone hang out with her with group by group and my heart have strongly feel 失落.Besides,sometimes friends are talking about some else or topic I totally are the Outsider. Like today,they asked holiday want hang out or not ? at the moment I really are outsider.So nothing can I say to it just shut up.
When I back home, I felt sometimes the class don't have good result one they don't have this type of problem even have not very.....I started envious them. That is the real friends, it showing me !
I'm not very happy in school. Compare to F1 & F2 this year is the year 'paling' unhappy.I want be the strong one! Sometimes,I really feel very lonely and I'm outsider in every where I stay. And I really hate it !!!
Outsider
Labels: part of my life, unhappy
